God's Got a Plan

Am I cocky?

Strange question, I know. But here's the deal...

This week I was supposed to hear back from both potential employers as to whether or not I was being offered a job. It never occurred to me that I wouldn't be offered either job. On the contrary, I was more worried about the dilemma of being offered both jobs, or being offered the State job and not the Adoption job.

I'm really not cocky. Anyone who knows me knows that. I simply know what I was like as a professional, I know that I was always the "pet" in the workplace and that I was always known for being the most efficient worker there. It never occurred to me that someone else wouldn't know that, or that my being out of the workforce for 4 years would play into anything, or that maybe there is no one left at any of my past jobs who could vouch for me, or that my being 40 could factor into things.

Who knows what happened. However, both jobs failed to materialize. On the State job, I have no doubt that one of the two very qualified social workers who already worked in that office was offered the job. And that's as it should be. On the adoption job, the Director let me know today that she is going to be interviewing one last person and that she anticipates being able to hire that person because they possess the one thing I don't.... experience in the adoption field. The Director did say that if she feels after the interview that the other person would not be a good fit, she will offer me the job instead. So don't quit praying for a miracle in the next several days!! At the same time, I'm trying to be a realist and to prepare myself for the fact that the job is not to be for me.

God's got a plan. We keep reminding ourselves of that. He does have a plan. Why I'm not yet privy to the details, I don't know. I sure hope He reveals something soon.

Michael & I did decide last weekend that I should "go for it" and buy a 1/4 page ad in the local Bridal Guide that is being published next month by the News-Register. Good thing we made that decision! It was risky because I had to put it on a credit card. However, like Michael said, we could always have a garage sale to cover the cost of the ad if it doesn't land me any clients. The ad itself is beautiful (full color!) and I can't wait to see it come out. Along with the price, I also get to be listed online (in full color) for an entire year. The one thing I've always been lacking is a way to get to the brides. This is it.

My other big project this week has been the playroom. Nick loves to go down and just demolish the room... overturn every toy bin, empty the bookshelves, use the art supplies on the walls, etc. Enough was enough. Michael suggested that I box up almost all of the toys... leaving them with very few... and put them all in his shop for now.

I went a step further. The boys have WAY too many things. So I have been painstakingly going through each and every toy. I've had 3 distinct piles: 1) Goodwill, 2) Trash, 3) Boxed up for storage at Michael's. It has been interesting to say the least. The boys haven't necessarily liked my decisions on what stays, what goes, what goes permanently, what gets trashed, etc. But it will teach them a valuable lesson. I have a goal to finish up what's left this weekend while they're at Matt's.

Anybody need some toys??..... :)